Lub dub.... Lub dub.... Lub dub ... .goes my heart, early on a Tuesday morning. I woke up feeling so sad with no part...
Lub dub....
Lub dub....
Lub dub....goes my heart, early on a Tuesday morning.
I woke up feeling so sad with no particular reason. All I could feel was a pain of fear hugging me so tight.
I panicked, I shivered, as I struggled through my daily activities. I couldn't explain the way I was feeling, but I know very well, something was not right.
I called some of my friends and spent a good amount of time on phone just for me to get distracted, but this did not work either. I spoke with my husband who concluded it's just what? the blues???
He tried to calm me down in his way but it wasn't still good enough, the pain was still there, the vacuum was there. I spoke with my parents too, but still can't get this pain and feeling out of my chest. It keeps thumping harder at random times. I am someone that doesn't know how to express myself with words when i'm going through pain, I have my ways of dealing with overwhelming issues, but this one, is inexplicable. I started to feel worthless, asking myself several questions as to what am doing with my life, which is a state I never want to be.
All the thoughts of not being useful suddenly started to bang in my head. I have forgotten the good and positive parts of me and found myself wallowing in an uncontrollable situation.
And I asked myself, is this what it is? is this depression? Am I depressed ? or is it just the blues? I sometimes find myself in this situation and I also bounce back in no time, but this particular one was just too scary.
The truth is that, at some point in our lives, we all get these blues. This feeling of sadness, blues and loneliness is a normal phenomenon for us to go through in life as a human.
This feeling often doesn't last long but wait, what if it does? what are you going to do? It's like putting one in a dark lonely room with no air space, with no means of escape, that can be very scary. Now what if this feelings disrupt your sleep, and insomnia knocks the door? What if the feeling of worthlessness leads to excessive weight change? What if some devilish thoughts creep in??? What if it's the main depression? How can you tell?
Depression is more than a state of feeling unhappy or getting fed up for a few days. You often don't snap quickly out of it. Depression affects people of all ages and gender, one is never too young or old to be affected by it.
I used to think depression is a trivial thing that doesn't require medical attention, how wrong I was? It is actually a real illness with symptoms. The good news is that depression can be treated with the right medication, counselling and support which often leads to full recovery.
Nobody knows or feels what you are experiencing, if you don't speak out, help is close-by if only you find help. Please don't hesitate to seek help when you start noticing recurring sadness, sleeping problems and irritability.
Here are some common symptoms to look out for:
Low mood, feeling sad, irritable or angry, empty feeling
- Having less energy to do certain things,
- Losing interest or enjoyment in activities you used to enjoy,
- Loss of concentration,
- Becoming tired more easily,
- Disturbed sleep and losing your appetite,
- Feeling less good about yourself (loss of self-confidence), or
- Feeling guilty or worthless.
- Weight loss when not dieting or sudden weight gain.
Depression Treatment: When to seek help
If you ever experience five or more of these symptoms for most of the day, nearly every day and the symptoms are severe enough to interfere with your daily activities, you may have major depression. Don't hesitate to talk to your doctor. Your doctor can examine you for depression, and help you manage and treat your symptoms so that you can feel better.
Source: NHS depression, webmd.
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